Today went out to watch twilight with Junwei and Jackson. Hmm. . . felt the pace of the story abit too slow. Not alot of action. . really is a girl's movie. And besides, all the guys in the movie ain't good looking if you really take good notice. Come on girls! Don't get angry with me now! haha. . its true. . .My friends and I felt that edward's that looks more sharp and handsome actually.

However, I pretty like alice. . .the sister vampire. She looks gorgeous. . .and like her bubbly personality. The kind of vamp girl that I like. . . everyone agree shes hot! But just too bad they are all on the wrong side. . evil side! haha . . . Andy called me towards the end of the movie and he say. . why are you watching such evil movies!!! haha .. he is the very traditional christian. Not a bad thing actually.

The movie only makes me wanna buff up. . however actually i am quite comfortable with what I have now. . . I ain't very skinny. . but i would prefer calling myself lean. I have actually the shape of six pack and I ain't lying!!! Just need afew more months of work out to make it more define. . .I have been working out actually. . .just join gym last week. Started running since GOd knows when. . . now currently running 3km once per week. I know its not enough. . but i am trying hard okay! Got so many other commitments man. . .

I know some tips about buffing up which is to eat 6meals per day. . . increases your calorie intake. Also, eat more fruits so that you can have better mineral absorption.

ALso, excercise at least 3times a week for abt 1hr. 20mins running, 20mins resistance training, and left over 20mins to strength building. follow this regime and food diet. . . plus drink lotsa water and sleep 8hrs. . .within 3months you will see good results! hahaha ya i know. .say easy but need lotsa discipline and time and money! Not easy. .thats why i am still lean.

Anyway i ain't being a model wat! so what for have so good bods? Healthy and fit is most impt! Going genting this sat too. . . hope to get some rejunvenation. Cheers everyone!

Am I wasting my time away?

Today, spend my whole day with yixing. It was fun because we had a great time chatting and talking about relationship stuff and also about our taiwan trip and about clothings. He came to my house and we plan wat hotel to stay at. I am too fussy that i insisted that the toilet must be secure and clean!cause i cannot stand dirty toilets.

Its hard to plan a holiday trip esp ones that are 8days long! We are going to taiwan from Jan 4th to Jan 12th with Jimmy too. It will be a fun and rejuveneating trip. By the way, why i am putting I am wasting my time as my title??

Reason is after the planning, we went out to town to do shopping! And then settled down in a cafe. yixing then pop out this question "Why are you going out with me? You should be out dating a girl at your age rather wasting time going out with guys every week!" It was a funny question. . as i kept giving excuses to him like can't just anyhow date any girl right? We must have a target! Currently I still don't have any. . . .I believe in something call "natural" as in it requires a continous flow of coicidence plus some action taken by myself to fall in love. . and not deliberately targeting someone.

I seriously dunno. . .Am I ready to get attached? hmm. . .I wonder am I ready. . career had just begun. . . not sure isit a good time. . . on the other hand I am already 25. . .Pastor did mention that 23of age is a good time to get attached. Yixing was like angryily reprimanding me that i am hopeless for giving excuses! haha. . .but I think let things goes naturally bah. . . .

Another thing arh. . .is regarding someone mentioning that\guys easily forget about previous love. And even place me into that category!! I don't agree. . . hahaha cause it took me 6 to 7 months to totally gave up and move on to what I am now as being "fine and moving on" So it really depends. . likewise I know a girl whom broke up with a bf and was feeling so miserable but yet within 2 to 3 months got attached with another guy happily now. . So. . .hmm. . . I wonder. ANyway. . thats all for today! DOn't complaint i nvr blog!!!! haha I am just abit busy with work lately. ..cheers!!!!

I wanna post something regarding last thursday which was 3 days ago. After work, I went to visit my grandfather. He was having fever and stomach infection. While I was there, I realised the fact that I granddad have grown so old in terms of his appearance. Comparing with 8years ago before he got his stroke, he was strong and healthy. The difference was great! I then realised how many times I have spent conversing with him and accompanying him during the weekends or when I am free.

One point is that sometimes we are too busy with work and with our commitments in the church, we tend to neglect our family members including our external family. Although I know our real family is within the church. I still believe the fact of having a balanced life with priority setting God first. Meaning we still need to set a considerable amount of time to visit and spent time with our extended family. If we don't spend quality time with them and even our pegan friends. . how are we going to reach out to them?

How often do you guys visit your grandparents? Once a year? once every 6 months? Thinks about it. Sometimes they longed to see us just that they did not voice out. The moment my granddad saw me he was like dropping in tears which really makes me cry too. Before we realised their non-existence. . let us spend more time with our loved ones. Cherish each one of them. Sometimes i see our new friends like charles whom i just met yesterday, i felt so touched that I can see he really love his mum. Despite him having a fierce and intimidating look, his love for his mum is not fake. Sometimes, there are things that we can also learn from non-christians. Some values that we have left out while we are too focus abt other stuff.

Red bean

Blower's daughter ; 你是我的眼

Credit-Suisse! My first job. . my first Career

These are some of the advertising posters Credit Suisse uses to market themselves. Over 150years of history, originated in Switzerland. . . Credit Suisse have become one of the Top Tier banks in the world right now. Also, it is currently ranked the Top Investment Bank for the year 2009 being able to survive and position out very well in the current economic crisis.

Credit Suisse is able to do that by maintaining high credibility by reducing their debts more than keeping it. The 2nd quarter of the year annual progress report, Credit Suisse billons of dollars while many other banks had reported losses.

So far, its been a great Journey working in Credit Suisse. Its a place where its really close to a dream working environment whereby you have freedom and you are well treated and highly looked upon. Though there is a specific working hours. . .you need not come on time as in you have the freedom to come into the office anytime. End of the day, as long as you can deliver what you need to deliver its fine.

They may not be paying as high as Barclays or Deustche bank, Credit Suisse working environment and culture is by far the best. You can literally speak to your directors just like a close friend and even question him on anything you feel its not right. You won't get this chance anywhere and for sure not in Local SMEs.

Company transport is provided and during the 3 weeks of my training. . .lunch is all provided in BUFFET style! We were told numerous times that we should voice out our opinions and thoughts as it is valuable. I never imagined anyone would say that and its a director who came to talk to us and said that.

I have also met many new friends in Credit Suisse. Many are fresh grads like me. .. they are a full bunch of fun ppl. Hang out quite often with them lately. Really helpful and friendly ppl. Mixture of races and backgrounds and religion but all blended pretty well.

I am working as an Technical Analyst in Credit Suisse in the Risk IT dept and I really must Thank God for all these to happen! Its God grace that I can be working in such a good company! More about my experience in Credit Suisse will share with you guys in due time. Cheers!

Insomnia!!!! While walking to dreamland. . I kept doing self-reflection

What i meant is I can't sleep, my brain just kept thinking lots of things. Probably ever since my graduation, there are more issues for me to be bothered about. Such as my business, my career, my health, my financial planning, my skills set for my career and growth of my cellgrp and ministry.

So many things in mind. A well known financial planner recently mentioned "A life without self-reflection is not worth living for". It is rather true. . as we can't live our lives day by day without evaluating how well are we living our life in terms of the quality and fruitfulness. We constantly got to spend at least 30mins a day to evaluate our lifes for the day or for the week. How we can improve on it, and whether have we developed any good habits or any bad habits. . .are we on course with out annual goals and life objectives. All these need to be reviewed daily with the guidenace of the holy spirit of course.

Then I realised, there are many things that I have learned for the past 3 years. Experiences good or bad. Some left a major scar, some vividly lingering around in my brain. In terms of relationship, I understand the fact that if someone don't love you at all, no matter how much effort to put or sacrifice, he or she will not be touched at all. vice versa, if he or she loves you, there isn't much is needed to be done to gain her love or acceptance. I chose to deny this fact but it is true. Its really pointless to be romantic and faithful to someone that you love hoping for the other party to respond. . but realising he or she is in love with another person. THe person will never change his or her focus.

Love is all about timing! God's timing of course. Some say destiny! I totally agree with that too. No matter how hard you try to find one, you will never find one if it is not your time to fall in love. Some spend years to find their love but still never got their chance but others take no more than a second to fall in love. There is always a reason why some people found their true love earlier than others. Don't be envy or sad . . . . there is always a good reason and purpose for it.

Regarding life experiences, I realised nothing is impossible!!! Miracles do happen. I am a good example! From a total failure in University. . . failing 3 modules and almost dropout from school. . . to currently getting a Pass with merit(almost 3rd class. .haiz wasted) but managed to find a good paying job all thanks to Jesus and my parents for the support. God never fail to amaze us. We might be at the valleys of death but he did it so that people can see God's existence and his power. If there is no High and lows in life. . . whats so interesting about life then?

Humlity is one of the key to success! This is mentioned by Pastor Tan I think. . and i strongly follow this rule too. Be proud about your achievements. . . but don't be proud to "others" about your own acheivements. Always praise others rather than yourself. As what kelvin mentioned last week. . .if you realised something bad about others. . pls dun criticise abt it to him or others. It doesn't cost or hurt to compliment others but it hurts others when you criticise others. OUR WORDS are very POWERFUL TOOL. It can destroy someones life and conviction in life and it can also give new visions and dreams to others. So do use our tongue wisely. If you are unhappy about something, speak and choose your words wisely. Always be humble as you never know when you will slide down the ladder or fall down from the hills and might need someone to lift you up. Proudness can only cost you dearly and be a target of your competitors. A famous author once mentioned, A proud guy will always be the first one to be retrenched during a recession! Just today, Junwei told me that his workingmate is very proud and no one likes him. He finally left the company probably feeling alienated.

The last area of my reflection is about failure. If we fail in relationships, studies or career. Don't be afraid to stand up again. A hero is one that never fails to stand up when he fall. Be of good cheer and treat it as a valuable lesson learned. brooding over it cannot solve the problem! Our circumstances should not determine our attitude in life but our attitude in life should determine our circumstances. I am a pessimistic person by nature. Over the years, I have been through so many down periods in my life. Often i chose to reproach myself and just stay at home and not go and get involved with others. But, I realised only if we know how blessed we are, we will know that things ain't that bad actually. Last year i went to vietnam, getting to understand the life of a 3rd world country. Realising how lucky we are, having water whenever we want, have a well built shelter(HDB), dine in restraunts every week, have friends, able to go university and etc. Often, make us feel how dumb we are brooding over issues like relationships and failure in an exam or probably lose a job. In countries like vietnam, they dun even dare to think about having a relationship as their main focus is to survive and have their daily breads earned! No proper living conditions don't talk about no money for entertainment in our case. We are so lucky compared to them. Able to blog . . . able to meet up with friends. And all. Our problems is indeed small to them and even smaller in God's opinion.

Last but not least. . . .please don't be attitude problem person! Be nice to everyone, anyone! Be generous! Follow the TEN COMMANDMENTS and life will be prosperous! The world can only get better if there are no attitude bastards around!!!! Do daily reflections and find a personal mistake then you have made everyday. Don't tell me don't have! we are not perfect! So there is confirm something that we did wrong! and change it! It can only get better in our lifes! Also for those working adults! Don't waste your life away by not having a financial plan! Don't know wat is financial plan?! Then go find a trustable financial advisor and ask them or ask me! I am not financial advisor by the way. I just work in a bank that just got to know about financial intelligence. Its important for you and me in years to come. Don't just live life as if there is not tomorrow cause "THEN THERE WILL BE NO TOMORORW INDEED" if you live life as if there is no tomorrow.

THats all I have got for my 3 years of life reflection. . . may have more to come! Can't believe I just did this. . .hope it helps in your life too. . . Cheers! and God bless

My current favourite Korean drama

WHO ARE YOU

Cha Seung Hyo is an abandoned child who gets adopted in the United States and grows up to be a cold hearted person. Son Il Gun is a father who died, but he left things unfinished with his daughter. In order to make sure that his daughter is provided for he controls Seung Hyo’s body for three hours a day for 49 days. He buys his daughter the things he couldn’t do when he was alive with Seung Hyo’s money. Il Gun’s daughter, Young In, is a quick-tempered girl who meets Seung Hyo during her part-time job. At first she has a bad impression of him but she gradually starts to fall for the lonely Seung Hyo who is unable to open up to anyone else because of his bitter past.

Blogger's view

very funny yet romantic korean drama. It touches my heart whenever I watched it. May lose the korean drama "Snow Queen" by a little but its still as good. The main actor may not be very handsome but shines a certain charisma. Go ah ra, the female actress is only 20years old and really acted very well in this drama. THe plot is really something different. Its about a 11 years age difference relationship between the main actor and actress. There is also suspense in terms of the investigation of the death of Son Il Gun.

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道你对他有那么好你说会懂我的失落不是靠宽容就能够解脱

我以为我出现的时候刚好你和他正说要分开

我以为你已对他不再期待不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口

专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究你会慢慢明白他的心不在你身上我的关心你依然无动于衷我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口

专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅原来你早就想好你要留在谁身旁

我以为我够坚强却一天天地失望少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望却输得那呢绝望

ORD LOH!!!

Actually, I am just clearing leave from today onwards. My actual ORD date is 9th July. Will be collecting my pink ic then. The very next day, which is 10th july, I will be flying off to SEOUL. I managed to find myself a place to stay with a korean family. Think it will be a very cool experience. From now till then, I seriously need to settle afew important things. Got to clear up my room, is getting messier. I need to get afew pieces of working clothes. Thought of tailoring them but don't know where to go and make.

SUNTAN! need to get myself more tan and look healthier! Also, got to complete 12hrs of online financial market course. Its very tedious and tiring man. Banking is not as easy as I think.

I also wanna make someone happy! Not to think about the past and move on with life! Also not to forget make myself happy by having a great time in korea. Let myself have a clear mind and charged up before embarking into my new career!

Thank God for all that he have done in my life! I need to have more confidence about myself. Thats the only think i am lacking right now. Tonight, going to celebrate Jimmy's birthday! Jimmy is really one of the nice guys I have known besides ee horng. Hope tonight will be a great time of fellowship.